New times

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Things have moved on so much for me in the last two years.
Wonderful thing's, frightening things, anxious times, fantastic moments.

Good friends, a little more acceptance of my situation, a most of all wonderful new partner. All have helped life move on to a happier place.

Have I come to terms with myself ?
Maybe a little more. Still not without reservations, but I can't change my discomfort with my self fully just like that.

New questions are now raising however. I've always held to the belief I would not intentionally hurt any of my loved ones due to what I perceived in the past to be my oddity , my selfishness, my condition.
More people know of me now. There is a little less anxiety in my life, but my premise still holds.

I don't want to let my life effect others around me detrimentally in any way.

My daughter is due in March. A twist in my life I never expected to happen. Which makes life so, so wonderful , but suddenly so complex for me.


Jess said...

Plus ce change.

Hoe you are OK?

Pandora Caitiff said...

Mmm. I know the feeling. I am always acutely aware that my secret identity could put my close friend in awkward positions when asked even innocent questions by familiy members.

You also have the joy of "what do I tell my daughter, and when" to come :(

I'm sure you'll make the right decision. I beleive in you!